Christmas Burden.

For many people, Christmas is not as joyful as candy canes, Santa, Jesus and presents. For some, it is a time where you need to put on a mask and fake a smile while your insides are hurting because you miss someone who is no longer with you.

For the past ten years, Christmas has not been the same without her. For those who did not know her, she had a presence that was welcoming, an engaging laugh, and eyes that were full of pain deep inside, but hidden with knowledge and wisdom.

I do not remember her laugh, her smile or her voice. However, I can see her face vividly. Unlike most the people in my family, I have not allowed myself to dream about her, or feel her surrounding me. Part of me died ten years ago, and I have been unknowingly suffering ever since.

Brutal Truth.

Brutal Truth.

From you I ran
for a such long time
I locked you the key completely
and buried it inside
For you bring out a certain side
that makes me wanna
drive right into a wall
To use the broken glass
to cut through all the bullshit
of my past.
Here is my brutal truth
The ball and chain
Got me locked down
bounded by the pain
I have come to release you
Before it is too late
Before I am too old
To change the course of fate.

You're so vain.

Old but good one.

I refuse to surrender and suffer at your expense.What is it worth? My heart, my pain, my pride and my dignity. Why don't you just take back all that you've given me? Nothing seems to work. Somebody does not care. It's just too much emotional responsibility to bear. Vanity is a sin, yet you'd win the award! Its way beyond selfish, two steps ahead of self-absorbed. What am I to do? Sit and remain utterly confused? While you take and take and I am left abused? I refuse to shed another tear from my eye. I'll keep my feet grounded, and hold my head high. For you gain through loses yet you lose what you gain. With my spirit intact, only for words will remain.."Fuck You, Mr. Vain!"

Heart to Heart.

Here's an old but good one..

I think of you all day long

Feelings have come on

so strong

Slowly but surely

Immensely and intensely

Envision

These visions

so clear

my face represents

my tears

Your face will

replace

with your embrace

will take away

the fear.

I can no longer hide

the pain will subside

this feeling

time healing

I can finally see

What is meant to be

A new chapter will start

The day we meet

heart to heart.

heart to heart
mind to soul
It is the ultimate control

heart to heart
eyes to eyes
Love is the disguise
heart to heart

Emotion through rhyme.

I pushed my limits
Out of the comfort zone
Keep telling me how I rock your world
But you turned mine upside down
Instilling fear about the next move
For what?
Resisting myself
is ignoring the most important voice
I am ready to say whats on my mind
Swallowed the lines
How the promise of a new day
was coming nearer
Now I see things clearer
For the first time
Through the use of my emotions
and cleverness of my rhyme
This illusion
Caused confusion.
Its true.
Shattered the mirror
Reality beaming through