"When one door of happiness closes, another opens, but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one that has been opened for us"

-Helen Keller

I have not had the energy to blog lately-in all honesty, who reads this anyway? But then I realized, maybe someone out there will find that my words could be a source of inspiration, comfort, or even laughter.

The quote that I am sharing above is for those out there who feel that life is oppurtunistic for everyone else, while he or she may be enabling others and neglecting their own dreams.

For all the wrong reasons.

Today might be your last day, they say
So don’t bring your sorrows into tomorrow
But what if your pain has you anchored to the ground?
Like a black sheep in the lost and found

Lookin’ for someone to save the day, someone to save the day

It all happens so fast
We have to press rewind to understand
The flashbacks from the past
And with blurred visions
We do things for all the wrong reasons.

What if I were to invest ALL of my energy into myself? How far would I go? This is just a random thought that sort've popped into my brain.  Perhaps, it is a no-brainer, especially for someone who is an avid communicator and thinker.......

Christmas Burden.

For many people, Christmas is not as joyful as candy canes, Santa, Jesus and presents. For some, it is a time where you need to put on a mask and fake a smile while your insides are hurting because you miss someone who is no longer with you.

For the past ten years, Christmas has not been the same without her. For those who did not know her, she had a presence that was welcoming, an engaging laugh, and eyes that were full of pain deep inside, but hidden with knowledge and wisdom.

I do not remember her laugh, her smile or her voice. However, I can see her face vividly. Unlike most the people in my family, I have not allowed myself to dream about her, or feel her surrounding me. Part of me died ten years ago, and I have been unknowingly suffering ever since.

Brutal Truth.

Brutal Truth.

From you I ran
for a such long time
I locked you the key completely
and buried it inside
For you bring out a certain side
that makes me wanna
drive right into a wall
To use the broken glass
to cut through all the bullshit
of my past.
Here is my brutal truth
The ball and chain
Got me locked down
bounded by the pain
I have come to release you
Before it is too late
Before I am too old
To change the course of fate.

You're so vain.

Old but good one.

I refuse to surrender and suffer at your expense.What is it worth? My heart, my pain, my pride and my dignity. Why don't you just take back all that you've given me? Nothing seems to work. Somebody does not care. It's just too much emotional responsibility to bear. Vanity is a sin, yet you'd win the award! Its way beyond selfish, two steps ahead of self-absorbed. What am I to do? Sit and remain utterly confused? While you take and take and I am left abused? I refuse to shed another tear from my eye. I'll keep my feet grounded, and hold my head high. For you gain through loses yet you lose what you gain. With my spirit intact, only for words will remain.."Fuck You, Mr. Vain!"

Heart to Heart.

Here's an old but good one..

I think of you all day long

Feelings have come on

so strong

Slowly but surely

Immensely and intensely

Envision

These visions

so clear

my face represents

my tears

Your face will

replace

with your embrace

will take away

the fear.

I can no longer hide

the pain will subside

this feeling

time healing

I can finally see

What is meant to be

A new chapter will start

The day we meet

heart to heart.

heart to heart
mind to soul
It is the ultimate control

heart to heart
eyes to eyes
Love is the disguise
heart to heart